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Monday, May 9th, 2011
3:15 am - At least I got a song out of it

Maybe it's just me, but you should read this. http://thoughtcatalog.com/2011/on-loneliness/

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Sunday, December 19th, 2010
12:55 am - "You give me something..."
I'm stealing Seven's music post, wherein I put my music player on random and then write the first line of the first 20 songs that come on and YOU have to guess the song. YAY!
The crappy thing is, I haven't heard half the songs that came up. So you're going to think I'm a sappy country listening girl with suppressed rage, possibly. Nothing I listen to on a regular day-to-day basis played. AT ALL. I may have too much music. But is that even possible? I think not. I just go through music phases and that is how I've acquired half this stuff.

Also, I cheated twice because the same artists played more than once.

So... here are my songs: (and answers are next to the songs. Just highlight your way to the truth. How poetic; I should write songs. Or not.)

1.       “There ain’t no reason things are this way.” –Brett Dennen, Ain’t No Reason

2.       “My momma said to stay away from guys like you.” Save Ferris, I Know (10 Things Soundtrack)

3.       “Oh…Mm… I’m not always strong.” Shania Twain, The Woman In Me (Needs the Man in You)

4.       “Dear, I feel we’re facing a problem.” The Cardigans, Lovefool

5.       “ Ooo… I used to cry myself to sleep at night.” Whitney Houston, All the Man That I Need

6.       “Killing in the name of!” Rage Against the Machine, Killing In The Name Of

7.       “I made a promise to myself.” Dixie Chicks, I believe in love

8.       “Do…do…do… File me away in your heart someday.” Badly Drawn Boy, File Me Away

9.       “I heard there was a secret chord.” Rufus Wainwright, Hallelujah

10.   “Listening to the musak, hearing people scream.” Weird Al, Cavity Search

11.   “I know tonight she comes.” The Cars, Tonight She Comes

12.   “Mary Anne and Wanda were the best of friends” Dixie Chicks, Goodbye Earl

13.   “Situation number one, it’s the one that’s just begun.” Jack Johnson, Situations

14.   “Oh, yeah… There ain’t a woman in the world that wants to hear the word yes.” Brad Paisley, That’s Love

15.   “There’s something sweet.” Beauty and the Beast, Something There

16.   “Pity, take pity on me.” Death Cab for Cutie, A Diamond and a Tether

17.   “Deep in 100 acre woods.” Winnie-the-Pooh

18.   “Sensations drift away.” Steve Miller Band, Keeps Me Wondering Why

19.   “I feel like I’ve been blown apart.” Merril Bainbridge, When I Kiss Your Mouth

20.   “Give me a bottle of your very best.” George Strait, Unwound

current mood: lazy

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Wednesday, December 10th, 2008
4:11 pm - Snow days!!
It's snowing. Just barely, but it's there. I dream of seasons and snow and snow days! and avoiding sheets of falling ice from school buildings. Ahh, the good ol' days.

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Saturday, August 16th, 2008
7:09 pm - WHAT?
Here 's a story bout an Iranian basketball player that the NBA cannot sign because apparently, "a federal statue prohibits a person or organization in the United States from engaging in business dealings with Iranian nationals.”

I was shocked because a) I had no idea that there was such a policy and b) a 7 foot Iranian? Amazing! Lol. Just kidding. There ARE tall Iranians. My dad and I have had this argument before. Anyway.

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Tuesday, May 13th, 2008
11:14 am - Redbelt
 I went to see Redbelt last night. It's a movie about this guy who teaches mixed martial arts and is forced into fighting in a competition. I was a little hesitant to go and see it at first. I mean, a movie about fighting, yay. (That was an unenthusiastic yay, btw, in case you missed that.) But it was actually quite good. The story built very well and characters were introduced in a way that seemed chanced but were intertwined with the entire plot as the movie progressed. Two guys from Love Actually were in it so it was fun to place them. We had the theatre to ourselves so we were loud and made comments throughout. But it was actually kind of a quiet movie. I went to see it with Cesar and his sensei, Michael, and it was even more interesting to see it squished between two people who practice martial arts. There was one scene that was one of the best scenes I've seen in awhile. The main character, Mike Terry, walks out and away from the camera and you see a woman (we know who she is) walk toward him, he pauses to look at her, then they walk back toward the camera one on either side of a small gate, talking. She stops suddenly and slaps him. It's awesome because the entire time they're talking we don't hear anything at all but you know what's going on. It was gorgeous. I was afraid it was going to be lots of fighting and blood and instead it was like an independent movie about someone who practiced MMA. 

current mood: crazy

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Saturday, May 10th, 2008
5:58 pm - Stress, hell
 Finals are over, yay!  Almost died last week. That was a grand total of 3 projects and one exam. Got about 3 hours of sleep a night the entire week, had a (very public) crying jag, mmm... was all set to talk to cute guy at the end of our class but that didn't pan out. He stayed later to talk to the prof and I tried to walk out as slowly as possible but i couldn't stay around without looking like a stalker so I had to give up. Sad. And the next day this guy from my other class walked out with me and we talked about our exam and then he turned to me and I was like, oh, shit... and he asked me for my number. But it was in a very sweet way and he's kinda geeky and like, 12 so I said sure maybe we could get together and talk about Photoshop. Yay! Anyway...

And last night it was my friend Stephanie's birthday and I agreed to be the DD and we drove out to Spring to a bar that's almost exactly like Molly's (which is 7 minutes from my house instead of 25). It was me, Stephanie, Ivory, and Cesar. A full car. So we went to the bar and it was kind of fun. We met other people up there and then another friend, Megan, showed up. I drank coke all night. And I signed to Stephanie if she wanted a shot (One night when we went out, we made up our own sign language. It's AWESOME. Stephanie made most of it. Need is like you're kneading bread. Go is a face like you're constipated. So imaging people using this in a bar; it's pretty hilarious). She agreed and I was trying to ask her which one she wanted so I tried to sign "buttery nipple". Anyway, she's like, peanut butter? And we laugh and joke about a peanut butter shot and she tells me to order it with a straight face so when the waitress comes back I order 4 peanut butter jelly shots (not for me) and a coke. "Peanut butter and jelly?" the waitress asks, clearly confused. I nod as though everyone knows what a pb&j shot is. Okay, she agrees and leaves. We're all like, she agreed? WFT? 

Suddenly everyone wonders what other weird shots their could be. "I'll take the mutton shot." "Could I have a shot of ham and cheese, please?"

So she comes back with 4 shots and a coke. Everyone sniffs the shots and wonders what the hell is in them. Apparently they taste like PB&J and sadly, the actually ARE a shot. We were going to ask for random, made-up shots for the rest of the night but Ivory and C told her our plan and how asking for something way out in left field actually turned out to be a shot. Frangelico (?) and raspberry, btw. 

Anyway, it was hilarious. If you're out in a bar sometime, try it! Make up some name and ask for that shot. Stephanie asked for a suicide but by that time the waitress had caught on and wasn't amused. If I were a bartender, I'd throw random shit together and make my own shot. You want a suicide? I'd put crazy alcohol mixed together. Why not? You don't know what it is and if they do, they'll tell you it's wrong and what's actually in it, right? I think suicide is a good name for a shot. 

"I'll take a taxi. On the rocks." "Could I get a stressed out college student and a coke?"

current mood: crazy

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Tuesday, May 6th, 2008
10:21 am - Gomitas
I've  got projects this week and a final so I bought coffee and gummi bears and to eat them, I pull two out and sort of make them bump uglies, sorry. So it's like gummi bear sex. Except sometimes I don't realize that one of them is upside down so it's actually gummi bear 69. Sorry. That's disgusting and I'm pervy but what can I say? You've got little bears to play with before you eat them? Sometimes I just make them dance or do a chest bump or a high ten. Or just eat the head of one and the body of the other and smoosh them together. 

Just wanted to share the inner workings (or not working so well) of this chickie. 

current mood: crazy

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Friday, April 25th, 2008
10:00 am - R(MW)C Art
In case you didn't get it, here's the letter from the President.

current mood: blah

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Saturday, April 5th, 2008
1:04 pm - the right stuff
The exciting music news is here: http://new.music.yahoo.com/blogs/thatsreallyweek/13822/march-31-april-7-hospital-blues

In case you don't click the link or miss the awesomeness that I felt I had to post about, here is an excerpt. Possibly the only relevation worth mentioning: "One thing we are excited about, believe it or not, is this week's reunion announcement from New Kids On The Block!" WHAT?! Ahahahaha. Why did nobody tell me? 

Ok, that's it for the incredible dorkitude for now. 


current mood: crazy

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Sunday, March 30th, 2008
2:29 am
2:30 am. Still awake. I've been up and going albeit slowly since 6:45am, having only gotten 3 hours of sleep. It's not the longest amount of time I've been awake. But I can't pull 48+ hours the way I could in college. Plus, today was INSANE (I'll have to catch you up tomorrow) what with the Democratic Delegates County Convention (...or whatever it's called) all frickin' day. I was there from 7:45am-9:30pm. Needless to say, I was exhausted when I came home. But it was the sort of tiredness where you almost can't stand to go to bed quite yet. So, I found myself throwing on clean clothes and hanging out with some friends to watch Super Bad, which I'd never seen before. I've heard of McLovin' for months now; finally got to watch it in the flesh. It was awesome. True story.

P.S. Tonight I met a gorgeous boxer who loved to cuddle and was big but surprisingly light and who I wanted to take home with me, but for some reason people have a problem with you wanting to take their dog. Weird.

current mood: tired

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Friday, March 28th, 2008
12:02 pm

This  stupid thing from facebook, I don't get what's wrong. I can't find the error. I can find some things that it possibly could be. So, folks, what is it? What's wrong with:


Did you know that 80% of UCSD students could not find the error above? 

Snurched from facebook. 
Sometimes I think these things don't have anything wrong with them and they just make you search and search, lose sleep over it, feel a lot of self-doubt so some jack-ass who sent it out can laugh at the sheer stupidity of people. 

Maybe that's just me.

current mood: crazy

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Thursday, March 27th, 2008
2:14 am - Question.

Is it ethical/okay to use pictures of your friends in projects? Without permission? I hope so. Kidding. So, I'm asking all of you now: do you mind if I sometimes use pictures of you in my projects? The projects are presented to my professor and classmates. I won't do anything disgraceful; just some touch-up work (not that any of you need it!) and that sort of thing.


current mood: contemplative

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Thursday, March 20th, 2008
11:54 pm
Today was exhausting. 

Happy Iranian New Years, guys.

The end.

current mood: thirsty

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12:42 pm - Bugger

So, this week I had to creat a "National Enquirer" image. Basically, I had to make an unbelievable image look believable. Seven was telling me that Octopi are really smart and I was like, ahaha! That's what I'll do. So, now I have a picture of an Octopus with Albert Einstein's hair and mustache, holding two beakers, writing out a formula. It's cool, but not believable at all. Should I submit my rendition of Albert Octostein? Or should I try to create something else?

current mood: curious

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Wednesday, March 12th, 2008
10:20 am - Did you guys hear?

from www.randolphcollege.edu:

News Archive

Art lawsuit dropped

3/8/2008 3:43:49 PM Litigation brought against Randolph College in an attempt to stop it from selling four paintings from the College's collection was dropped on March 7.    

Dear Community Members,

I am pleased to inform you that litigation brought against Randolph College in an attempt to stop it from selling four paintings from the College's collection was dropped yesterday, Friday, March 7.

The College is pleased this litigation has been brought to an end and will continue to focus its attention on the upcoming appeals regarding coeducation in the Virginia Supreme Court. We believe the art and the coed cases are not connected. The courts have said they are unrelated, and we agree.

We are confident in the strength of our legal position and look forward to resolving these issues so that we can focus all of our attention on education and on securing the bright future of this College.

The Board of Trustees remains committed to doing what is necessary to ensure the financial future of this institution. The decision to sell the paintings was and remains necessary. The College will sell when it is in the best financial interests of the College.

There is already much good news to share as a result of the coed decision. Applications have tripled those of previous years. Total giving has rebounded. Many alumnae, once unsure of coeducation, have returned and are now supporting the College and its future direction. We still have challenges, but we are making real progress. The hard decisions we have made have positioned this College for a strong future. We are grateful for the community support we have received.


John E. Klein


current mood: blah

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Tuesday, March 11th, 2008
8:33 pm - Elevens
Even my  horoscope predicted it: Foreign travel is highly advisable, although even a trip to the park could yield some fun. That's right. A trip to the park. I met Ivory at 6 pm today to go for a jog. We went for a walk around the waterway instead. We scaled walls, encountered wild animals, a dog it's owner couldn't control, an obstacle course, quick sand, rough terrain, and an irrate cop.

Part of the path was closed due to construction, but I was not to be deterred, so we climbed over several railings and gates to get around it. Wild animals: Ducks. Ferocious dog? A tiny dog a lady was having trouble keeping to the side as the trolley passed. There was one section where they were laying the foundation for the sidewalk (yes, it was blocked off, but who really reads signs anyway? or notices large gates barricading the walkway? puh-lease) so they had the wood and metal parts down. It was sort of like jumping tires. Ok, I may have exaggerated about the quicksand. It poured yesterday so there was mud, squishy mud everywhere there wasn't a path. 

So, Ivory and I are walking back on the path once we cross the blocked off portion of mud and construction. There's a cop ahead of us at the bridge. Oh, shit. There's no way for us to explain how we got there without possibly getting into trouble. Ivory and I talk to each other hoping to ignore the cop and walk on by. No such luck. He waited for us. "So. Is that path still blocked off?" he asked. Ivory is closer so she answers. I'm one of those people who when faced with a serious or sad situation has the insane urge to laugh. At first she's like, path, what path? He motions toward the direction we came from. "Oh. Yeah, it is," she agrees. He asks if we were walking back from it after finding it closed. She agreed that we are. I would have come clean, I mean, what's he gonna do, arrest us? lol. He could have. Anyway, it was so funny. We walked away before bursting out laughing. 

Anyway, it was tons of fun. And random. But good. I've been off my exercise path of excellence these past few days. And feeling sort of sluggish and out of sorts. So, this was just what I needed. 

OH! In other news, on this day, March 11, 2008 at 7:20pm my car clicked over to 111,111 miles. Yes, I have the pictures to prove it. It's sort of awesome. Hehe.

current mood: cheerful

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Thursday, February 28th, 2008
9:01 am - P90X
 Phase One is done! And we're going into phase two. Do I see results? Not really. Every time I work out, I check myself out in the mirror (yes, I AM vain, thanks). Do I see a difference? Am I supposed to look like that? Haha. I feel better. Like more in tune with my body and muscles. So, that's something. I don't think I've lost weight, but the pants that were tight fit again! That is possibly the BEST feeling in the world. 

I've decided that while P90X is good for me, mostly because it's in class form it gets me to class and there, ready to workout. Yes, even at 9 am Saturday morning. I need more. So, Tueday I went for a bike ride AND did P90X and I wanted to do more, but didn't have the time. lol. Let's see how long that lasts. And yesterday I went jogging. I haven't been jogging in a long time. Not since California because I've been worried about my ankle. But ankle was fine and I felt like I could go longer without dying or being super short of breath. I think that has something to do with the P90X workouts. Like I'm improving my core, so that helps me with other activities. 

Just a side note on bike riding: It is awesome! I've forgotten how exhilarating it is: the wind, the speed, the feeling of freedom. I realize that some peeps are like, hey, we have snow, biking is out. Well, I've got three words for you: come to texas! I'm kidding. 

current mood: awake

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Wednesday, February 27th, 2008
7:59 pm - Fin-lessness and other stories.
 I think I could live on salad and cake for the rest of my life. My probably very short life, but they are oh, so good.

Shark: The Wannabe Movie in Susan's Head
By: Susan
In other news, "Sharks killed one human in 2007, according to the International Shark Attack File, but humans killed an estimated 38 million sharks for their fins each year, Baum said." AH-HAH! It's about damn time to make my movie. 

The rest of the article can be found here.

Between then and now
A short story by Susan
Wow. I forgot I was writing this. I chatted with C for a hot minute on messenger and texted this guy I met on Saturday night who I've been playing phone tag with since yesterday. 

A Smash in Class
Based on real-life events. By: Susan
Aside from that, my project was not torn to smithereens as my first one sort of was. I was very determined to discuss all the elements of the piece. Ok, not all. I didn't go up and talk for hours. I just explained myself and my choices in a more confident way; I had reasons for the font I chose, etc. Cute boy was still as cute and preppy as ever but wasn't finished with his project so that was disappointing. (His last one was awesome. I swear, I'm only attracted to his mind. Wait, what? That's a lie. Anyway.)

Cake: Not the Band
Still working on the application. Still stressed as frell. But the cake and salad put me in a better mood. Although I'm suddenly exhausted. Damn the cake!

Choose your ending
A story in the making
I went back and added the "titles" and the by-lines. Obnoxious as hell? You decide! If you find it obnoxious as hell, stop reading or leave a rude comment. If not, keep reading and leave a comment.

Politics: The truth behind the lies
Susan, her thoughts.
So, apparently the other week (last week, in fact) when we went to the Hilary Clinton party, I signed up to volunteer to be a precinct leader. They called me tonight and left a message (I have class!) telling me that there were training sessions tomorrow or this weekend. I think it's kind of cool. At first I was like, oh, shit, I signed up for what? But I've got essay tomorrow and Austin or San An or something like that this weekend, so I don't know. I guess I'll call back tomorrow and find out more.

The end.

current mood: creative

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Monday, February 25th, 2008
2:01 pm - Gibberish
I'm  drinking coffee and eating Jelly Bellies. I think I'm going to get a sugar high and then be very, very sick. Tomorrow is Carrie's birthday. I don't know why I feel I have to mention it, but there ya go. I'm working on this crazy application. It's not crazy. I am. I am having serious issues trying to think and then just writing. Write, damn you! But I can't. And it isn't so much fear that's stopping me, it's like writer's block. I can do this. I HAVE to do this. This is something I really want. I'm just a wee bit... frustrated. With myself. Anyway. This morning my dad told me that my step-mom asked if I was dating Cesar. Eww. C'mon now, folks. He's just a friend. I don't think they grasp the concept of male friends. Oh, well. My cousin texts me while he's in class. He wants me to move to California. I like that I get along swimmingly with 17 year old boys. We're at about the same maturity level and our humor is at about the same level as well. I told him to pay attention instead of texting me. He said he was multi-tasking. Hahaha. That's too funny. 

Um. That's it.

current mood: weird

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Friday, February 22nd, 2008
6:16 pm
 G. Love/Hilary Clinton

Last night I went to a G. Love concert. I've never really listened to him but by chance I was watching a video of his on YouTube and chatting with Cesar at the same time, when Cesar said he had an extra ticket and would I like to go? So I said, sure! And that was the beginning of an interesting day. 

We went to work out (p90X style) at 4pm at the dojo. My mom called as we were about to start and I told her where I was, she said, "Oh, you're at Cesar's Palace." I explained that it wasn't his place and that Cesar's Palace sounded like a strip club. She agreed. Anyway, we did Plyometrics, which is a lot of jumping around. Half the moves I love and the other half I despise. Part way through I was disgusting and sweaty. Anyway, I went home after and grabbed a very fast shower and Cesar and Alex came and picked me up and we headed to Houston for the concert. 

We had half an hour to kill before we could buy tickets (Cesar got mine-- company bonding, he explained. Yeah, right. Anyway, it was very nice of him.) and Alex was starving so we walked to a pub where there was a Hilary Clinton party (?) where Hilary supporters had gathered to watch the debates. We walked in and the lady at the entrance asked if we were there for the party. Yes, we were. Actually, this was completely random but one of those opportunities that was too good to pass up. 

Alex got food, a cute guy got me a stool even though I was content to stand (so of course I couldn't turn it down and sat), and Cesar knew the bartender. There was a great energy with all those people there, watching the debates and cheering and everything. We couldn't stay long because we had to get back to the concert, but it was such a cool experience.

Drats. I was going to include pics, but sadly I can't. I guess I'll put them up on myspace, so check them out.

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